I want to wake up cuddling and aggressively pressing my morning wood against someone while grabbing theirs
straight couples telling me their parents won’t accept their union because they are from different races/religions/etc and comparing it to how my parents can’t accept me dating a man…
JK Rowling said she would have made Seamus/Dean canon but she felt it would be distracting from the main trio
Literally how much space do you need to have a line about Dean asking Seamus to the Yule ball
Look, I’ll try
"Parvati had tried to ask Dean to the ball, but he told her he was going with Seamus instead."
I’m feeling really down and just really, really stressed out and just in general over it. I’m just mad and tired and frustrated and stressed and just going crazy. I don’t know what to do.
I’m lonely, I’m tired, I’m going stir-crazy, I’m stressed out from school, I feel unloved and unappreciated, and I just…I don’t know.
I am going to delete all these gay apps, nothing comes from them anyways, I’m so tired of trying and frustrating myself and then looking like a fool when I put myself out there and get nothing in return. I feel like some hideous, leprous blob that nobody wants to talk to (well, nobody that I would want to talk to, which, tbh my standards are already lower than they should be). So I don’t know. I’m tired of putting myself out there.
And I’m so lonely and I keep waiting for people to talk to me and stuff but that never happens either, so that makes things worse and just ugh.
And I’m so stressed out about school. I get so stressed out. It’s so much material, it’s so much stuff, it’s so much and so time consuming I just can’t.
And I have nothing to do to de-stress. I can’t eat my feelings anymore because I’m working on losing weight, I have like…two friends here who I barely get to see, I don’t have a boyfriend or anything like that, I don’t really have any hobbies anymore and I feel guilty any time I try to pick up a new one, and I’m just going insane.
I’m going to unfollow porn blogs other than the one or two whose owners I’ve talked to and gotten to know, I’m unfollowing all the pretty boy blogs too, I’m deleting grindr and all that, and I’m just…I don’t know. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore, I’m going mad. I feel like I’m literally going mad in this tiny studio.
Hm. I’m down 15 pounds since July 7th, which is 16 days. I mean that’s according to my bathroom scale, which is probably inaccurate but still.
Yay, it’s something.
Cute things I say/yell at my cat:
"For the last fucking time stop doing that or I’m going to sell you off to the sketchiest Chinese restaurant I can find"
I just feel really weird today. I feel as if I “woke up on the wrong side of the bed”, even though that’s not possible in my case because my bed is up against the wall. Still. Everything just feels…weird. I went to sleep really late, I woke up really late, I slept badly.
I just feel…off, and I don’t know why.
Watching porn and thinking, “oh wow his wristband thing is really cute I wonder where he got it from” as he’s jacking off while getting bukkake’d